Night before

So here I am, the night before we find out what we're having. I feel the need to first clarify my previous entry. Tonya, a lovely friend from work, apologized and felt HORRIBLE for having offended me in telling me she thought I should wait and not find out the sex. Well I then felt horrible because I really was in no way offended. I love hearing my friends' stories about their big surprises. I really do not get offended that easily. Rest assured Tonya, I wasn't upset! :) My feeling about finding out is kind of like telling people the name you choose. I'm always nervous when telling people the names we like for fear of them reacting badly. Our choice will not please everyone, but it's our choice. Enough said about that.

So I talked to one of our techs, Singh, today because he asked what I wanted. Yes, you all know I've been wanting a girl. But finally, for the first time, I feel at such a peace and such an excitement about EITHER gender. What scares me is thinking long term about what I'm responsible for teaching a boy or teaching a girl, what they will face growing up being that gender, and knowing what society will expect from them because they are that gender. But... I finally feel excited for whatever the baby ends up being. I never prayed specifically to be at peace with both genders, but God in His infinite wisdom knew my heart and gave me a wonderful peace. Jake on the other hand is still hoping for a boy. :)

I'll update tomorrow with the big news!