Silas and I are both carrying around a few extra rolls these days. Okay, I might be exaggerating... I don't exactly have ROLLS but I am carrying a few extra pounds. Silas on the other hand, has rolls. And boy, are they CUTE!!!! To those of you who said "the weight will just fall off" and "you'll be surprised how fast you get your body back".....YOU LIED!! Yes, I dropped quite a bit reeeeally fast (thank you water retention) but I'm still carrying an extra 13 pounds. UGH! Not exactly how you want to feel or look during the summer. I have only a hand full of clothes that fit but refuse to go buy more because 1) I don't want to spend the money when I plan on loosing this weight, and 2) I'm thinking maybe it's incentive for me to loose the extra pounds.
However, I can't workout like I used to. There simply isn't enough time. It is literally impossible for me to workout on the days that I work. On those days, I'm up at 4:30am and then I crash into bed around 10pm (not to mention getting up at least once in the night to feed Silas). The other four days of the week I try my best to either get to the gym, or get a long walk in with Silas. But the weight isn't "falling off" like some of you promised.
Do I look hideous? Nah. Do I don't look good? No. I wanted so badly to go to the pool today but don't dare put a bikini on. Jake suggested I throw on some shorts....what, so I can create a muffin top to show off? No thanks. I simply refuse to buy bigger clothes that I will only wear for a short amount of time.
Now Jake and my Mom are talking about a cruise in December....okay.....that gives me a good 6 months to prep this body for a bikini. Lets hope I find some self-discipline and time! :)
Okay, enough of my complaining. This extra "junk in the trunk" came with a sweet reward - Silas. I would do it all over again because every single pound is worth my sweet Silas! I have so much to be thankful for and I'm not gonna let a few extra pounds get me down. And if Silas is comfortable with his rolls, shouldn't I be comfortable with mine? ;) Ha!
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I think that you look fabulous, but I know that hearing it and feeling it are two completely different things! I hear what you mean about not enough hours in the day. We're also up at 4:30 and by the time I get the kids to bed, the last thing I'm going to do is work out. Hang in there though, it will happen. I never lost all my weight until I stopped nursing and then I had just a few months before I started the process all over again!!
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